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End the rant~ end the rant~ I know... i'm just pretending to act tough, as if nothing happened that came crushing down my peaceful life... =.= indeed, i'm still drowning into deep dilemma... or you could call that as, love sick... geeez... It's been 5 years, me and claudey together... yet my heart rumbled in anxiety, somehow, i did remind myself, am i really ready to marry him in next 3 years? He has a good job, car, caring, loving, and everything that a young lady yearns for a man... However, when i truly look at his side, sometime i did wondered, am I being blinded by love all this time? Unable to solved the puzzle that hidden deep within my heart... It's a long story if u asked me to start, why suddenly my feelings changed toward him? I'm giving him another chance to fix himself... and i truly know, actually i loved the 'old' him... the one that never fears of anything, he devoted every single second to me... yet now, it is not the same o' thing anymore... =[

I guess i'm tired of facing how he used force to makes me do something to him... Or spent away the money he earn for things without thinking twice... I know he wanted that casing for so long, yet it can be bought on next time when he truly settle all of his unpaid debt of credit cards [that's the most annoying thing in life, credit cards... =.=] Sigh... i don't even dare to borrow money from him now... he can't even settle his stuff, how am i going to rely on him? and how am i going to continue rely on him when we have our family? it'll be tough if u married a guy that spent the money without thinking of how to feed the family and so on... i hate to have such thing happen, whereas my mother is the one that face this thing, we don't even have our own proper house, a car, nor a motorcycle... my dad used all of his hard earn money for his likings, in the end, the money decreased and eventually affected the entire family... And he cant even supports me in my study, i have to borrow from claude in the beginning before my loan came... Geeez... life... maybe i had enough of it... sometime i wish i would not have to carry this burden on my back... alright, quit this ranting bout family... =.=

I've just watched Final Fantasy VII Advent Children Complete... i'm not a fan of the 'SE-trying-to-add-more-series-for-ffvii'... it's going to ruin my impression for the old ffvii game sooner or later IF they continue to release more and more FFVII, god bless you, SE... try something creative and fun next time, will ya!? =.= don't just sit there and added more stuff to ffvii, that game should be fine without all this crisis core, dirge of cerberus, bla bla bla you named it... >.> BUT, i must admit, i was fascinated by the battle scene of Cloud vs Sephiroth... Indeed, they added more scenes to this version, compared to the last series somehow... they enhanced the battle, making it looks slightly brutal [yeah, that means turning the great grand-sephiroth into a brutal killing machine, wooot], he stabbed cloud maniacally for god's sake! Good grief, i'll kick his butt if he did that again >.> But, it turned out to be the greatest scene among all, at least, and finally, we could see some 'injuries, dirt, and blood' in this show eh? xD If not, how could it worth the title of Final Fantasy anyway, without those impact of battle? XD that'll be bullshit if the characters looks clean, and neat as if they were not injured at all during battles O.o Check the old ffvii ac and u'll notice Tifa, or Cloud or anyone that engaged in battle before, didnt have a single injury, nor dirt, nor scratch on their body/face, excluded the first battle of Cloud where Yazoo shot close to his eyes hahaz, nah i'm not trying to make all of bored of ffvii, it's a great game... unless SE stopped to released more of the sub series though, >.>

The song ~ Safe and Sound by Himuro Kyosuke ft. Gerard Way [My Chemical Romance] fit the show very well; when i listened this song, it kind of remind me about the motorcycle chasing on the highway xDDD Ahhh... watching this series sorta reminiscing... I still remember i'm a die-hard-otaku girl for Cloud Strife, my ex-hubby, loool~ and a great supporter for CloudxTifa, nyahahaha~ And when the old ffvii ac released on 2005, i was like, could spend the whole day watching that movie endlessly... pretty scary huh?

However, the most nostalgic part was, this series reminds me of my first meeting with Claude... huhuhuhu..... T______T i missed those times... If only i could turn back time once again...


Here's some To-Do-List that i wanna complete...
Fortune-Gypsy ~ Iyrealla Geirssdottir [100%]
Chrono Cross ~ Sang of Feeling collab with :devpsychopedia: [100%]
Kaze no Kioku ~ World Destruction [55%]
Godsibb ~ Kiriban prize for ~StarSophi [0%]
Kawaii Warlock ~ Ragnarok Online [55%]
Ragnarok ~ Oath of a Valkyrie character sheet [20%]
Hyousa ~ RasutoxReina art for ~StarSophi [65%]



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You see, it's like, works are neverending, huhu ;_______; Hopefully i'll complete them ASAP... Moreover, i havent start anything for my temporary client in freelance job, he requested any random flyer... Good grief! I have to squeeze my brain juice to get those bizarre ideas...! Bizarre i mean! >_____< Please do remind me about those jobs i've listed down in my To-Do-List if possible, and i'll be much appreciated of what you've did! Thanks a lot, muchas gracias!!